Day 3 5th grade antics

Ok, so today was a long day of waiting tables and would you like another refill sir. I thought I would be in the safe zone from making any embarrassing actions, apparently I forgot that they follow me everywhere. So the sum of it is...I'm at standing at one our computer stations ringing in an order and I glance across the dining room and see an attractive guy sitting across from another man. Of-course, my first thought is that he prefers men, not sure why...maybe it is because most of the good looking guys turn out that way, for me at least. So out of curiosity I ask the server who is taking care of them , what his status is..moments later he returns saying he just asked the guy if he was straight and single..Just like that. He replied with a yes. and yes. Now normally it would have just been done, then and there. I don't know, that's just what i do sometimes, wonder and when I find the answer it's more like a hmm...good to know, because in situations like this, work situations, I just would rather leave it at that. Apparently my friend didn't think so and out of his best intentions let the guy know that he had an admirer. I wouldn't have considered it that, maybe if he worded it a little differently things would have been easier. Of course the guy had to be curious and asked who it was.

Let me just say that this isn't normally how I handle things, well lately anyways. If I were out and about I would be able to do all the work for myself, I like to think that I have more courage than the way I acted.

After time passed he finally let him know it was me and of course, I felt flush with embarrassment. I have to walk by this table to check on mine, so I resume to head down walk fast with not a care in the world, as nonchalant as possible. I almost felt as if I were putting on a show,- minus the tap dancing and final chorus. ooohhhh, not to mention he was sitting with his father, who was encouraging this escapade. Neither of us were bold enough to walk up to the other person, and all the outsiders watching have their own opinions. You should do this, or that. I honestly just wanted to take back the curious little question I had asked, and refrain from making an ass out of myself to a stranger I will probably never see again.

I'm sorry I know this a ridiculously long story. But it felt worse in my shoes when it was happening. In the end, I was given one last chance to say something as the check was being dropped, and I pussied out. I ran over different scenarios in my head and none of them were witty enough for me to take into action. So I proceeded to write him a note...I know WTF. It read," Hello, I am sorry for the 5th grade antics, it has been a long day and my comfort level pushed, if you would like to have a cup of coffee call me,***-***-****, Jaime" Yes folks, that's right, i wrote a not to a guy I thought was cute. I have seemed to of forgotten my age. All I can say is jas;odfijsd;oijd;sgh uas fs;dijf shadg o;ew/.really? alskjfd.

I don't even think I acted this way when i was in 5th grade. I mean I might as well put a couple of boxes on the bottom for him to check yes or no to. This my friends is why I have found myself in my predicament at my age. Oh well, it is what it is. Just promise me that none of you will follow the things that took place tonight. Just man up because I couldn't.

That is all for tonight. Forgive me. Jaime