Day 7 Sleep

I have been completely unproductive today. It started with my 1:30 wake up time, which I am almost ashamed to admit. I would like to blame it on the dream I was having. it's not the first time... which is the frustrating thing about it. I am in different situations and different locations, but the same problem keeps happening. I am trying to walk and do normal things, depending on who I am with or where I am , and I can't move like I want to . It's a horrible feeling that places itself on me. It's as if I have an adhesive stuck to my feet and I can't move unless I put all of my effort into it. It's almost like my knees wont bend and my balance is completely off. In last nights dream I was at a show and people just kept staring at me, thinking I was drunk. I am pretty sure this sounds ridiculous, but it's traumatizing in a way, and it always lasts the entire day after I wake up. I really wish I knew what my subconscious was trying to tell me. I also wish I could just record my dreams to a disk , to watch over and over, so I could analyze what they mean .

As for the rest of my life. I am completely excited to be going back to Utah. for the record I am not mormon. I used to live there because my dad got stationed there when he was in the, and it just so happens that my airforce brother followed his footsteps and is working on the same base that we grew up on. It's been a good ten years since I have returned. So many memories, I can't wait to rehash. Friends to meet again, see how they've changed. Maybe I could find someone to have sex with while I am at it. I mean, it wouldn't be a random stranger, because technically I have known my friends there for at least 13 years. I think it's a brilliant idea, but chances are I won't follow through. Mostly all of them have families of their own and kids to continue their blood lines. It would be a good story...funny.

And on a random side note, I just found out if I hit option and letters on my keyboard I get this œ∑´®†¥¨ˆøπ“‘«ææ…¬˚∆˙©ƒ∂ßåΩ≈ç√∫˜µ≤≥÷÷ ¡™£¢∞§¶§¶•º– so apparently if I want to do a calculus math problem I could do with the correct symbols...interesting.

Until tomorrow....Jaime