I have missed the mark yet again, before I can find myself floating on happiness my choices on who I choose to have faith in deflate the possibility of love And let it fall to the ground sinking so slow that the reminder continuously slaps me in the face with an " I told you so". Shattered tears cause me to wonder if the hope that I push is fading away each time I am reminded that hope doesn't neccesarily make a fact for my happiness. I've wanted so badly my entire life to have someone to share the new memories with and explore the possibilities this world has to offer. You have to of wanted something so badly it hurts, add a thousand times to that and you might get a glimpse of how I feel everyday with this weight on my shoulders telling me" you are never going to be able to have a normal love in your life" " noone will ever be able to see you for what you are and understand the reason for your existence" I'm sure this all sounds a little out of place but trust me when I say that I truely do not believe that love from another will find it's way to my door, it shall pass over and touch all of those around me. And maybe if I except my fate now, I will keep myself from the pain of getting hurt more than a person deserves. Jaime
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