Freak out Factor

Hello to all of those people who are constantly over thinking every situation and constantly wondering what the other person is thinking, as I do. Today I shall talk about the freak out factor...(named myself, so it could be illegitimate). The freak out factor can be defined as: an action that someone partakes in in a relationship, or interest, that scares the shit out of the person being pursued. I have realized that in prior efforts there has been a point to where I have managed to scare the other person.( scare might be harsh, but you understand what I mean.) Everything seems to be going fine, I mix well with the other person, find things in common, possibly a true connection is made. Then out of some strange place called nowhere, the guy just decides that it isn't the right time or place, or there is something that isn't working. It usually comes down to me just being friends with another guy., and honestly it is frustrating. I have plenty of guy friends as it is, if i wanted to just be his friend I would have stated prior. You know, set the imaginary limits, bubble radius.

This freak out factor has been a huge determiner on my "dating" life. ahhhhhhhhhh.......it makes me angry. Good lord. I have been trying to place my finger on the certain moment when each have occurred and it is just ridiculously hard. each time, different outcome. Hard to say this, one was after a sleep over, which really just consisted of making out. Another, after a disagreement, one disagreement. It seems that when the guy thinks that we are getting to close, it has to end. What the hell does that mean? Am I too intense, possibly. But I think that if a guy is going to call it quits, he just give a reason why. I think that too many times people are afraid to hurt the other person's feelings by keeping quiet, and in doing so , this leaves the pursuer ?????? so If i could just stress how important honesty is, i shall do so now, IT'S IMPORTANT....how am I ever going to improve as an individual if no one tells me what I am doing wrong. I am not saying that I will conform and adjust to meet everyone's needs, because that would make me someone else. I just would like to be aware of problems, so I can understand what the hell is going on. Ha. Alright. that is that for now.

jaime