Once there was a time where I was able to find myself relentlessly in love. Everything seemed to fall in place, there where things happening that I couldn't explain. Too many coincidences to go unnoticed. The words we wrote became our embrace. The conversations our kiss. For months I was falling in love without even a friendly hug to hold onto. Circumstances kept us from being together and timing caused us to say goodbye. Months of silence went, then a reconnection for future purposes. Writing again, my heart pounding again. I put myself out there to be faced with circumstance again. This time it took longer to pull myself from the floor where I laid in sadness. A year goes by and then another, and for some reason we keep in touch. it's hard to give up on something that was so good. Except this time my heart has learn from the damage that has been done and it has turned away from being ripped once again.
Now today, I don't know what I feel. I do know that I no longer hold a wall us between him and I. It's different. We have known each other for so long and been there for each other for so much. It's interesting what time has done to our relationship. There's no telling where it will be tomorrow. It's just so hard to let go. I believe that people are put into your life for a reason. Every single person. Of course some will have more value to you than others, but we all introduce something new with that first handshake of hello. I believe that there is a reason for all of this insanity. There has to be.
Jaime Striby
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